Mothers Day

December 22nd 2009

@Arisma's room rent, Gamping, Sleman, Yogyakarta

To all women in Indonesia:

Happy Mothers Day..

[It's a pleasure to be a woman -God's creature with all the special things inside]

To my lovely Mom:

I'm so overwhelmed with gratitude because I'm so thanks for having myself as your daughter. Thanks Mom for giving birth me, raising and taking care of me with everlasting love, keeping me safe and warm, supporting and warning me on every single step I take, forgiving all the mistakes I've done, praying for my own good, filling my life with tons of joy and happiness, lighting my life with your eternal flame.

Thanks Mom for everything you've given to me.

I'm so sorry for not having been a good and nice daughter to you. There are so many harsh words I've spoken to you, so many rude and silly acts I've done to you, so many mistakes and failures  I've made turning you down and even crying. I know that without this apologize you will always forgive me sincerely and receive me the way I am because your love is as great as the universe.

There are some sentences I really love to dedicate for my Mom. These sentences I've red from magazine, taken from one of book I forget the tittle:

My mother wanted me to be her wings, to fly as she never quite had the courage to do. I love her for that. I love the fact that she wanted to give birth to her own wings

I DO LOVE YOU MOM

I REALLY DO. 

bhjbjhb

bjhnb

The Best Flea Market Ever

December 13th 2009.

A nice Sunday with a bright sky above Bandung.

Yeah...For so many times unmundanely, I went to Gazibu. There, I brought a blag leggings, and some woody brooches.

Pfffhhh..

According to me, Gazibu is one of the best town mark of Bandung. There, you can hunt so many stuff in so many kind categories such as:

• Fashion: woman clothes, man clothes, jeans, veils, shoes, bags, belts, glasses, underwear, and even secondhand clothes
  
• Handicraft: money boxes, brooches, necklaces, bracelets, woody flowers, key chains,
  
• Household equipments: pans, buckets, plates, mattress, 
• Books: usually secondhand books or magazines
  
• Food: Sundanese food, corn cups, tutut, crispy chips,
• Fruit and Vegetables: strawberries, pineapples,
• Pharmaceutical product: traditional herbal, modern medicines
  
• Motorcycle credit
• Etc
  

There you can also try to ride a  house that rented, visit the fortune teller's stall, or just try to measure your body weight just by pying 1000 IDR in one of stall.

For your convenience, If you wanna go to Gazibu, I suggest you to wear cotton t-shirt,  training pants/jeans, money in sufficiently amount. In that flea market, there are so many picpockets. So beware of your bag, wallet and belongings you bring.

Well..

If you go to Bandung. It's a pleasure to visit this best flea market.

Then..have a nice sight seeing and shopping...

A Gift to Father

Bandung,  December 12th 2009

After visiting Bandung Zoo, I accompanied Bomber to go to Pasar Baru Bandung. She wanted to buy a sarong and sajadah as a gift to her lovely father.

Pfffhhh...

I really envy her for that.

She really loves her father.

I do wanna be like her.

I never be a good daughter for my stubborn father. Just like the same pole of magnet, both I and my father have repulsive force to each other. Nothing in this world can unite us. 

Dad...

I do love you..

Even I don't know how to show it.

To The Zoo

Bandung, December 12th 2009

with my best friend Bomber @ Bandung Zoo

Formerly, when I and Bomber were in TPB (term for first grade in ITB), we really wanted to visit the zoo laying beside our lovely campus. But that longing was successfully blocked by the myth that:

"If there were any ITB student visited the zoo before passing TPB years, he/she would graduate from the college in mistime." 

[Wew.. What such a totally jerk the myth was!!!]

Finally, almost in the end of 7th semester we went to the Bandung Zoo. YEAY!!!

The Bandung Zoo was not too big if compared with Ragunan Zoo in Jakarta. There we saw so many animals. There were komodos, lions, tiger, bears, deers, zebras, elephants, hippopotamus, many kinds of birds, many kinds of fishes, many kinds of monkeys (orang utan, siamang, lutung and friends), snakes, alligators, etc.

I and Bomber fed some Japanese Monkeys and bears. We also visited the aquarium zone there. In that zone there were also some preserved animals and a display of many kinds of eggs in vary size.

Then, we got lunch in one of gazebo lying the center of the zoo. Both of us brought our own meal in lunch box. While eating, we shared some stories such as academic stories, friendship, and even about 'pinky zone'. Hwehehehe

Well...

I love this day.

I'm overwhelmed with the gratitude because of the chance to hang out with my lovely friend: Dina Apriana a.k.a BOMBER.

Thanks God for tons of joy and happiness You gives to me.

Let The SPAM Go Away

December, 11th 2001

@HMS secretariat

with a bowl of Mie and a glass of hot cappuccino Mang GODEG made.

My relationship with my adult-met-elder-brother a.k.a SPAM (Stupid Pointless Annoying Man) has successfully made me crazier through the days.

Yesterday, I told Bagus all what had happened between I and SPAM. He suggested me to still wage a struggle on him because no matter what the SPAM was not clearly on 'taken' status. So there were chances for me to get him not as my adult-met-elder-brother. In Bagus opinion, SPAM was  kind of clumsy person. That was why he (SPAM) used to send stupid pointless annoying messages to keep in touch with me. So I needed to be the one who start a topic to be discussed .

Well.. I did what Bagus had suggested.

I started to contact him via SMS.

I asked a simple and very trite question to him: "How are you?"

He replied that question, informed me that he was fine at that time.

And then I tried to talk about anything I wished It could be made a light talks between I and him.

We talked for a while via SMS.

Then he left me without any bye2 word.

I was lose at that time.

Today, again and again I checked SPAM's FB status.

Wew?!? What a such freak girl I was?!?

Oh NO....

I wanted to stop my addiction on him.

Then, I removed him from my friend list in FB.

This evening I talked to Sekar about SPAM (almost same with what I had talked to Bagus yesterday). Sekar gave me an enlightenment into my point of view. According to her, there was 'something' between me and him. We (I and he SPAM) mutually had the same feeling. The difference was: I wanted him for real; He wanted me not for real. She suggested me just to move on from him.

I review a while my relationship with him and I realize that Sekar's theory is right.

ARRRGGGHHH...

That has hurted me so much.

I cry. Yup I cry after suppressed by all my childish fear.

I hate this horrible situation. But finally, I have decided to move on. I can't lie to myself anymore. I want him for real. I want him not as adult-met-elder-brother. I hate to confess his: I've fallen in love with him. He came into my life in a perfect time. And because I'm not the one one who believes the phrase 'Love doesn't have to have', I just wanna let him go away in this 'perfect' time.

Dear God, You have created me as a fragile girl. So please handle me with care. Don't let me broke into shattered pieces. Please give me more and more strength to face all the reality in my life. Please give me more and more courage to live my life. I know that I haven't been a good person in my life. I'm sorry for asking you too much. Dear God...I really want to love You as much as You love me.

Good Time with My Friends

Bandung
December, 10th 2009

This evening, I hanged out with my lovely friends; Elha, Bagus, Rahmi&Friends. We went to Cihampelas Walk.

We ate at Es Teler 77 laid in the north boulevard of CIWALK. The girls took the table in no smoking area -inside the restaurant- and the boys (Bagus and Rahmi's friends) took the table in the terrace. We were separated by the big opened window.

Most of us ordered Es Teler -the best beverage of that restaurant. Actually, I really wanted to order it but my stomach had still been full after eating Banana Split in Black Romantic -one of food stall in Gelap Nyawang Street,  a few hour before. So then I ordered Fried Otak-Otak and a glass of sweet ice tea (that I could refill after drunk up).

The one ordered the most excessively food was Elha. She ordered a portion of sup buntut and a glass of es teller. Well, It had reminded the girls that all of us were girls with 'eating disorder'. FYI: I ever used ordered a portion of Sup Buntut and Kebuli Rice as my Lunch (not plus a glass of avocado juice with much milk). Rahmi: For her, fried rice was just a snack. Hehehehe...

After eating, we went to watch Ninja Assassin in XXI Ciwalk. The film was so psycho. There were so many blood and body mutilation in that movie. Hiakss. Fortunately, I didn't vomit during the movie. I and Elha wondered how many red syrup and tomatoes sauce had been used in that movie production. Hehehehe...The main star in that movie was Rain rolled as Raizo -One of an ex assassin that avenged to destroy his ex clan ninja and kill the leader that had killed someone he loved. No matter how manly he was in that movie, I still considered him as a funny boy just like he had been as Liong Jay in Full House (one of Korean Drama).

After watching that movie, we took some pictures together in front of Christmas view in Ciwalk. Well, I  love the photo in the left -my photo beside the snowman. I really wanna be like him: funny and make another people happy.

Well...
My friends are my treasures.....

Happy Birthday!!!

December 10th 2009

Happy 17th Birthday to Mumun.....(My First Little Sister)!!!

I wish that you'll live in a good health, great success and everlasting happiness.

And the most important: I hope that you'll always live your life.
Viva la Vida!!!

Yeah..Just Me, The Coffee and the Chocolate

Yogyakarta,
December 9th 2009

Well...
This blog created to channelized all my idea, no matter how silly it is. Hopefully, by this blog I can share anything to you..

And now.. just me, the coffee and the chocolate here to fight all of my childish fear in facing the world i live.